It has been very quiet today, with both lads out at work. Yesterday evening was rather turbulent in contrast. The day had been OK, apart from my health issues. My cough has been a lot worse over the past few weeks. Anyway, Lovely Husband had gone out shopping at about 18.00 and my boys had still not arrived home from work. So, I was on my own, which is usually fine. This time, however, I began to feel anxious as the darkness came. There was no particular trigger for my feelings, but just a general feeling of unease. As I sat in bed, trying to distract myself, I began to feel dreadful and my anxiety developed into a full-blown panic attack. Luckily, the worst of it didn’t last long and I was just coming down from it as Elder Son came in.
He was totally fabulous and took charge, cuddling me against his chest and stroking my hair. Then he went to make me some tea, tucked me into bed, and made sure that all my meds were ready. I felt so loved and cared for and began to feel quite a lot better as he was so soothing and kind. When the other two chaps arrived home, Younger Son took over and talked to me for ages about all kinds of interesting things so that my mind calmed down. I so love talking to him as he has so much to say about a huge range of subjects. We covered the use of proper science in science fictionwriting and films, the making of Lord of the Rings and the Hobbit, the necessity of citing information sources, the nature of love and long term relationships – see what I mean?
Lovely Husband finds it hard to climb stairs, so I didn’t talk to him until he came to bed, by which time I felt fine again. We have talked about what happened this morning, although I cannot really work out what started the whole thing off. LH likes to solve problems, but I don’t think that logic could have been applied in this case.
Love was though.
Lots of it.
From all three of them.
I am so fortunate to have them all.
Today, so far, has been OK and I hope that it stays that way! This is what I wore today:
- Leopard print, cotton, short-sleeved top – Lands’ End.
- Indigo jeans – Cotton Traders.
- Horn necklace – QueCraft via Etsy.
- Animal print enamel and gold bangle – Halcyon Days.
- Brown leather and smokey quartz wrap bracelet.
- Tan leather, buckled, ankle boots – Duo Boots, formerly known as Ted and Muffy.
Tomorrow I am planning to wear my newest scarf purchase, all being well.